Have we ever done this? Have we wanted to dial **Quick and get what we want… slim thighs, no belly, well beating heart, more money, successful lawsuit… dial **Quick!!!!! When my doctor tells me I must choose… Healthy eating and exercise or fat and sluggish. I complain, (whine?) "I want ice cream and champagne!!! I want to stay up until midnight! I want it all! I want, I want I want!!!" Do we go like this to prayer? Do we only pray when we want something? I’m reading a book on Mercy which asserts that God wants for us… "only good, only health, only joy… dignity and sonship", but what do we do? Either ignore Him or even say… "He isn’t here." Who can look at the many Christmas displays of Baby Jesus held in his loving Mother’s arms, guarded by Joseph… heralded by angels; who can look and then forget? Why do we have to understand everything about the miracle-mystery of creation and Emmanuel – God with us? I have a friend who tells me "a spoon is a spoon… I can bang it and make noise; I can feel it." "True," I say, "We can’t see God, or even hear his still small whisper… " But men and women who lived 2017 years ago saw and felt his touch and they wrote about it… witness and testimony and we have their words today in Scripture. So if you don’t believe, please grab a Bible… any Bible, and look at Genesis (first book), and then look at John (the Gospel back in the New Testament). Look, read… We have a great witness in John. Please read, and remember way back when you were little and someone sang… "Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so!" Listen and believe! Be kind! God bless you!
Category: Susie’s musings
Football has been on our TV non stop since Christmas! The ‘Canes and the Seminoles won their Bowl games and then it all became a blur of games. Today we all picked Penn State and watched two brilliant teams rack up more than 100 points. Today we have seen 2 freshman quarterbacks play great ball in the Rose and Sugar bowls. Boston Patriot’s Tom Brady didn’t play in 4 games due to suspension for Inflate gate and he is able still to lead the number one pro football team in the country. They sure mopped up the field with the Dolphins… I like football and I’m always on tender hooks about injuries (hate injuries). My nephew plays and we pray for his safety. Such a violent pleasure football is!
We are getting ready to go on a cruise with cousins Barbara and Kenneth from Connecticut (they sure are enjoying Florida sunshine!) Cousin Carol flying in from Ohio tomorrow, and sister Thelma who rented a car and drove into central Florida to find some Seminole fans to watch the bowl game with. We have to admit we all went to bed at half time and we are happy Thelma had someone to play with! I’ve enjoyed our company so far. I have a buddy to walk with and we go shopping and buy pretty things. For example today was a big shopping day at the book barn (a used book store), Sketchers, BJs, and Good Will, actually bought books, shoes, pants and a bathing suit and shirt for Chuck!
It’s time for bed. Tomorrow will be another exciting day as we need to walk 10,000 steps, pick up Carol at airport, and pick up Thelma at the rental car place! Too much excitement so far this year!!! Have you made a resolution yet this year? Tell someone and share your excitement and success with a friend!!! God bless you.
Mixing Memory with Desire
Last evening, Chuck and I dressed up and headed out to visit Rob and Virginia Klein, old friends from the old law firm. Both look hale and hearty as opposed to Chuck’s and my rather chunky physical fattness…. Both Chuck and I are "living the good life" on the too much calories side, but I’m trying to remedy that with walking 10,000 steps with our visiting cousin Barbara!!! We drove home at 10:30 and cheered in the New Year on our back dock with Barbara and drank champagne! Happy New Year was cheered in with 30 minutes of lake side fireworks. Thanks neighbors!!!
Yesterday morning, as I cooked breakfast, words kept going through my mind…. "April is the cruelest month… mixing memory with desire…" I went immediately to Chaucer, where Chaucer opened his world of stories and poetry (Canterbury tales) with "April with his showers sweet, the drout of March has pierced to the root, and bathed every vein in such liquor of which virtue engendered is the flower… then people long to go on pilgrimage…" The world of Canterbury Tales is situated in an inn when pilgrims gather and are asked to tell stories! Some bawdy by Chaucer’s standards. This is a piece of literature that English majors read in full, and students struggled with as it is written in "olde English". But the memory and desire stuff also comes from the "Wasteland" by TS Eliot who wrote on a more pessimistic note:
APRIL is the cruellest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.
Winter kept us warm, covering
Earth in forgetful snow, feeding
A little life with dried tubers.
Summer surprised us, coming over the Starnbergersee
With a shower of rain;
Chaucer’s tale is for fun, but Eliot is known for his intense pessimism… when the season turns to spring.. we are stirred to move, but many don’t want to move rather stay under the forgetful snow. Desire stirs up memory, maybe of what we didn’t do, can’t do, or maybe of what we have done and shouldn’t have… All that is to be forgotten as the New Year begins. Today will be a day of memory. Sunday morning television is remembering those who died, most recently the beautiful Princess Leia Carrie Fisher and her mother, Debbie Reynolds,the beautiful mind Gwen Hall, Edward Albee and many many others, gone. So the memory… Now the desire. "What do I want to do?" you ask? I remember my neighbor Bill who said… First be kind. So let us shake off the covers of the past and go out into that shower of rain (or snow!) and be kind. Surprised and with passion! God bless you!
In the beginning…
I am so grateful that my church, St Timothy, offers Saturday morning daily Mass! This enables me to go to Mass every day of the year! The church is still as if waiting for the wedding ceremonies that will inevitably take place on Saturday afternoon, and she awaits the vigil Masses of Saturday evening (one in English and one in Spanish), and of course she stands ready to receive the mass quantities of Sunday worshippers. But for a moment it is very quiet and mops and brooms and rags are stacked against the back wall while we celebrate the end of the week, and today, the end of the year.
The gospel reading this morning hearkens back to the beginning of Genesis as Saint John writes, "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God… And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us (old translations say… he placed his tent among us). From his fullness we have all received grace upon grace… grace and truth came through Him." and so we remember the words that are emblazoned on our memory… "In the beginning, God created the Heavens and the earth". Memory. Today, New Years Eve, is a day for memory… Today we remember what we did and what we meant to do and sometimes, what we failed to do… Whom did we help and whom did we not help? No matter … memory is gone. Today asks us to look forward. Regardless of "what happened" let us look forward and think of the graces… "grace upon grace." Regardless of the profit or loss of last year, it is necessary to remember the words I’ve printed above from the beginning of Genesis and from the beginning of the Gospel of Saint John… and to thank God for every moment of life.
Without an open heart, we cannot tell the beauty of God’s creation. Let us pledge to be open, to look for the bright star, to welcome the gifts and the hope the gifts promise. Let us pledge to discern the beauty in the world. Let us see the gifts. Go outside and welcome the sun and watch the sunset. Notice that the morning star is already there, hanging in the West… waiting for the next dawn. Gift upon gift, grace upon grace! Let that peace and grace-filled waiting influence all your actions this coming year… thoughts, work, actions. God bless you!
A time for reflection
The other day I was scrambling around the house picking up stuff and laying down stuff… moving piles to accommodate other newer piles… losing stuff and searching for stuff. I bought a hinged frame for my sister Annette’s pictures (my sister passed away when she was 7 and I was 1 1/2 and I have her two photos.) When Chuck helped me remove her photos to replace some broken glass, we found photos of my grandmother and grandfather behind Annette’s pictures. Wow! My mother must have put Annette’s pictures there to keep the little one’s memory alive and I guess back in 1949 there wasn’t money to buy another frame so Annette went on top of grandparents. So anyhow the other day I bought a new hinged frame and went looking for Annette’s pictures that I had marked "Annette" and put on top of a pile of papers on top of the file cabinets. But I moved one of the file cabinets out a few weeks ago. OH NO!!!! The pictures are gone!!! But I have an angel on my shoulder who directed me to where I moved "the stack of papers"… into a closet up on a shelf. Like I said… moving stacks, files, and stuff is what I do!!! As I fussed about the house trying to keep things organized, making beds, washing the kitchen, and dusting to get ready for company, I said to myself, "you need to stop for reflection. You don’t stop to reflect!!!!" And well, that’s obvious since I haven’t touched this blog since late November after the elections. Maybe the elections shut me up because every time I want to talk to people about it I get into trouble… either I’m right and it’s awful, or I’m wrong and it’s awful. No matter what way we think these days… life in the next 4 years is scary. I must run off to the airport to pick up first load of cousins Barbara and Kenneth. I’m going to promise to write daily!!!! Merry Christmas. May you find Christ in your hearts and call him, "Son of God, Emmanuel". God bless you!
Go tell it on the mountain! The reason for the shouting? It’s Advent and that’s the time when we begin to peer around corners and to look up! We are looking for signs… Many of us are wondering if the stock market can hold this expansion. What will happen if off shores are brought home? Will costs go too high? We pray for a solution that brings us jobs, expands payrolls, and helps us to see "Made in America" more often. And that we’ll be able to afford "Made in America!" we also pray for rain all over North Carolina where timberlands are bitterly dry and fired threatens Gatlinburg, Dollywood in Pigeon Forge, and Knoxville. Come rain come! Chuck and I have been decorating since Thanksgiving. Christmas music plays constantly on the DVD player unless there is a Hallmark movie on. Not exactly. Football games prevailed also including Miami Hurricanes and Florida Stste, Miami Dolphins and New England were on, along with new episodes of Madam Secretary and Big Bang Theory. Can’t resist! I had to return my Apple computer to Best Buy for repair of the memory card so I’m hunting and pecking on my cell phone! Let me say I hope Apple moves quickly! And let’s all say a little prayer for rain or snow whichever you prefer! God bless you.
Settling in with new colors
Most recently the colors in my house changed and the government changed. So lots of change… and "it’s done" and we have to settle in and take a deep breath and "get used to it!". Both changes took a lot of time and work and the result of my paint change, in my opinion, is wonderful…. the result of the government change isn’t so well known, and in fact is a bit scary. If I listen to the news channels I think to myself… "don’t Panic!!!" It really occasionally sounds to me like Donald Trump isn’t going to govern, but he is going to have people all around him, whom he trusts, who advise him. Maybe that is the way it has always been. And… one point that keeps coming up is nepotism. Am I correct in remembering that Robert Kennedy served in his brother’s White House as Attorney General? There is a wonderful picture of John Kennedy and Robert Kennedy in close serious conversation over the Cuban missile crisis… There’s a case where brother and brother conversed over very serious matters. At this point, only prayer will help and we hope the Constitution can hold this country together, and maybe we’ll be surprised by good things. We can only pray!!!
Meanwhile… the Miami Herald tells me that winter is a comin’ in!!! Hartford, Connecticut has already seen weather in the thirties, and Miami is just now beginning to see weather in the 60s in the early morning! The lows over this coming weekend will be in the 50s in the Miami area! Whoopie we will be able to leave the air conditioning OFF!!! Light the first fire, enjoy each others’ company, and do something positive… believe God is with us! God bless you.
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Paint colors and the Presidency
At a little before 3am Hillary Clinton called Donald Trump and said something like.. "OK you got it… good luck" and then he made a speech and suggested that America will be great again… he will do good things like rebuild the infrastructure which Barack Obama promised 8 years ago… And a lot of other things that presidents elect say. A news man said, he can promise all he wants, but the way the founding fathers built the Constitution, power resides in Congress and that’s a spending issue, and Congress isn’t going to spend any money. Something to the tune of another 4 years of dead lock. And our bridges will continue to crumble. Interesting that the music playing in the background of Donald’s grand exit from the stage was the Stones’ "You can’t always get what you want … But you can try sometimes and you get what you need… " Fr Frank Pavone, founder of Priests for Life has expressed hope that a Trump presidency might bring us closer to the ending of abortion… the killing of unborn children. That’s a real hope, and that doesn’t cost anything but love. Let’s pray that we all step forward in the next 4 years and give a hand to making America great again… God bless America
Meanwhile I’ve got walls covered with paint splashes trying to choose a paint color to brighten up our house while Chuck is off hunting. I’ve cleaned out the library closet as I threatened to do….. and have a lot of stuff piled on the library floor. Now what to do with the "stuff…" I’m telling you, stuff sure takes up space. And Jackets! Who needs so many? Winter is a comin’ on, but my dear, who needs all these winter jackets? God bless you this autumn… and thank heaven the speeches and ads are over.
Change the clocks!
How many of us have arrived at church in the middle of a service…. an hour early for the one we "intended" to attend? I did this once at St Theresa in Coral Gables and I actually demanded the usher let me go in, "because ‘they’ started early!" Well it almost happened today but the Miami Herald, which I put on vacation mode until December, but that keeps getting delivered, had a big square announcement on the front…. "change your clocks!" I checked my cell phone, and indeed, it’s an hour earlier! So I got up at 8:30 which was really 7:30 and am now having some free time. So I’ve perused the daily Mass readings, read the Winn Dixie ad, signed up for some Winn Dixie specials, looked carefully at my walls to consider a new paint color, and have a little time left to say…. Change your clocks! YOU HAVE AN EXTRA HOUR!!!!
Last evening the University of Miami finally won a football game. They are out of the "standings" but it doesn’t matter. A win is fun and we finally got it after starting with 4 wins and then losing 3. How can anyone, a person, a team, a business, start out gang busters and fall so far? I guess it applies to all of us to think about that. Do we get lazy? Do we forget the "basics"? Do we fall to a tyrant? This last is scary at best. Most tyrants are originally "elected." We need to be very vigilant about this election and first be sure we vote. Why is it that we get to this day (2 days before election) and so many Americans are saying…. "I can’t make a difference?" Remember a few good men won wars for us… The Revolution probably had only a few thousand fighting men win our freedom. Only a few hundred at the Alamo and at San Jacinto in Texas won that big state. Only a few of us can make a difference. Strap on your courage and go "punch a button" or make a circle or an x at the election place near your house. God bless you.
Ghosties, Saints, and Souls
We just celebrated 3 days of "others" where we concentrated not on ourselves, or politics, but on those who have passed. My neighbor Kathie tells me, and many Christians tell me, they do not celebrate Hallowe’en because it is about things like the walking dead, witches, and ghosts that aren’t Christian, but I do, "for the kids." I remember dressing up as Freddie the Freeloader in my father’s big pants, shoes, and shirts and dirtying up my face and running all hot and sweaty on the streets of Miami shouting "Trick or Treat" and eating too much candy. Remember to visit the people who give cookies last because the apples that people throw in our bags always crush the cookies! This last Monday night was Hallowe’en and Chuck and I decorated with lighted up witches in the windows, a couple of pumpkins with candles in them, a big witch hanging up from the porch post (when the kids come, we push a button and she cackles and her eyes light up) (makes some kids squeal), this year we had a lot of candles and the porch looked cool! I buy a lot of candy and sit outside from about 5:30, the little tiny kids come early, until 9pm when it’s all big young teenagers… and we give a lot of candy away and talk to the parents. It’s all in fun. We got a lot of princesses this year, several pirates, assorted goblins, and one Donald Trump. Talked with the neighbors who either bring their kids out, or are taking a break from candy giving. In my opinion, good fun. Immediately upon closing down at 9pm, all the ghostie and witch stuff has to be taken down because the next day is All Saints, a Holy Day in the Catholic Church when we remember the Saints who emulated Christ, burned with love for Him, and worked so hard on their prayer and behavior, always with their eyes on heaven. We remember all Saints this day, not only the ones everyone knows, Saints Peter and Paul, Saints Teresa and Therese, Saints Ann, Felicity, Perpetua, Agatha and Lucy who are praised in litanies, but the almost unknown ones who were martyred for their faith many so young… each one a love story for God. A love that exceeds their love for themselves. That people emulate saints and ask for saints to pray for them is both accepted and assumed in the Church. I read a lot that Jennifer Hubbard writes. She lost little Catherine Violet in the Sandy Hook massacre of little children in Newtown, Connecticut. She writes for All Saints Day: "The saints, trusting in the promise of their great reward in heaven, are examples of fulfilling a purpose not of this world. They are the miracles in our midst. They are the martyrs; they feed the hungry, embrace the sick, and clothe the naked. They are blessed, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven (Luke 6:20). And i, through communion with them, am reminded in my seeking, mourning, sadness, and love, that, I, too, am blessed." We don’t worship Saints, we just remember what they did, ask for them to pray for us, and thank God for their beautiful lives that we can emulate. In the Saints’ humanity we can see the brightness of Christ. So, on November 1, we read Saint John’s vision in Revelation 7: 2-14, "These are the ones who wear white robes… washed white in the blood of the lamb." and we celebrate All Saints. The next day we celebrate and pray for All Souls. These are the people who have "passed on" in the hope that they too will see God’s face. We read the Scripture that tell us, "The souls of the just are in the hands of God, and no torment shall touch them. They seemed in the view of the foolish to be dead, and their passing away was thought an affliction, and their going forth from us, utter destruction, But they are in peace…" Read Wisdom 3:1-9 for the whole of this peaceful, prayerful reading of God’s promises. Saint Paul writes: "Hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit." ( Romans 5:5). As we weep for those who have passed on, our parents, our children, our friends, we must retain the hope that God would not let his beloved children suffer long. They are being purified if they need it, and we pray in faith that they will see the face of God. I think this is why mothers pray so much for their errant children! I know my mother prayed a lot for me to come back to the church. We have to want to see the face of God…. OK that is the amazing first three days of the last month of the Christian year which ends with the Feast of Jesus Christ King of Heaven and Earth, and then we go into Advent (and start the year all over again.) Let us pray hard this week for our hearts to be full of love, and for our country. God bless us and God bless America.