Because the Lord is good to us!!! Yesterday I was working on organizing a pile of papers in the art room. I pay bills on the computer and drop the completed bill with notes that I paid on the floor behind me to wait for filing. There is also a stack of papers that I accumulated since the entrance into the ER… So there I was on the floor organizing and this came into my mind, "The Lord is my Shepherd and there is nothing I shall want." I was overwhelmed by that whisper. What does the Lord want me to do? Imagine the shepherd lad guiding his flock of sheep: He finds a sweet spot of soft grass and he curls up to sleep while his trusty sheep dog guards the sheep. He is content and happy because he knows he and his sheep are protected. He hums a tune praising his God. We too have sheep to watch, but when we get anxious and tired (me), why not turn them over to an angel and trust God to guard everything. If bad things happen, trust in the Lord to work his plan. Trust, do not worry… Let the Lord lead you beside still waters and restore your soul… Fear no evil for God has promised to take care of us. Anointed with oil, full of blessings, dwell in the house of the Lord with goodness and mercy. WOW! I never really FELT the 23rd Psalm. Now I am feeling it. It is my shield and my mantra.
Chuck is getting better! Today he finished a free cell (card game on the computer) that he started 2 weeks ago and couldn’t finish. He got up this morning and made coffee and came to wake me up with coffee in hand and told me I had 18 minutes to get to church. He was watching his watch and giving me time updates… "Time to put clothes on and get out". He started the car and handed me my purse with a book to read and my "schedule of activities I had planned for this morning". I’d say the old Chuck is very near…
Sleep deprivation is devastating. It is the gift given to the care giver that as often as we are weary and sleepy and wanting to "smack" our sick one, we don’t smack them and we don’t have a bad accident…. (recite the Psalm or other prayer here). I shepherd us off to bed before 9pm and I give strict orders to stay in bed until 7am. And then he’s restless because his shoulder is aching ( I go get an ibuprophen). Then some time in the night I have to go find him (usually sitting watching TV and sipping coffee he makes at all hours) and I put him back in bed…. he wakes up and then is so sleepy but needs to be told to go to bed…) I think when he is tired is the hardest time. Although during the day he’ll take himself in for a nap and often sleeps 1 1/2 to 2 hours. But he’s able to do some things like he’s starting to conduct business and he makes Dave walk every day!!! Even took himself out to walk alone in the Keys. Well darlings I have to go file those papers. God bless us all and receive our thanks!!! Love Sue